SO here I sit. I have a list of stuff to do but I simply cannot function. Where to start! I have finished most of the little piddly things but I have NO FREAKING clue where to go from here. AHHHHHH!!!! So I am hoping that maybe by blogging I will feel better. So far it is not helping. I just sit here thinking maybe if you just starting working on something you would get over this hump but no I am writing to you, that is provided anyone actually reads this. I doubt it!
In one month I take my qualifying exams and while everyone tells me I will be fine and that I don't need to stress it just doesn't seem that easy. I know I can write my papers and I know what I need to do before hand to get ready (including three papers for a conference, lesson plans, teaching, meetings with committee members, ect) but I feel like every-time I turn around I am hit with some other question or request. Yes I DO know how to say no. And I am getting slightly better at saying no. However when one of your course directors tells you that you have to go observe another TA and talk to them about their teaching (in the next three weeks) I can't really tell him NO. Well I could and that might solve some of the other pressures I have on me currently. However then I would have wasted a TON of time, money, and sex that I could have been having with my poor neglected husband. (Sorry that was maybe more then you wanted to know.)
UGH! This too shall pass and I will be grateful for the experience, Blah blah blah! I know in my heart I can do this, and I will do this but looking one month out it seems like a REALLY freaking big mountain.
Time for more tea. Since I had to put coffee aside for the moment! ;( Stupid stress!!!!
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