Ever since I was a little girl I have loved the story Alice in Wonderland. I have read and seen just about every version created and I have to admit I LOVED the newest movie. I think I liked it so much not only because it takes me away to a fanciful place with interesting characters but because in the end Alice learns who she is and finds the strength to stand on her own. To fight her inner Jabberwocky.
And as I watched the newest installment of the story I knew that the remainder of my PhD career would be much like an adventure in wonderland, culminating in the final battle between me and my dissertation. So here I am. Looking at the calender knowing that in less then a year.... the battle will be over. I KNOW I will defeat the beast that stares back at me. I have the vorpal sword, that being a topic I love. But it is heavy and sometimes unwieldy. I have an adviser that sometimes seems very much like the Queen of hearts, and is happy to say off with my head. I have companions that are sometimes as crazed by stress as the mad hatter, as indecisive as Tweedledum and Tweedledee, and as mischievous and elusive as the cheshire cat. Yet I am not sure what I would do without them.
But as much fun as it would be to continue this metaphor I have to remember a few things. I DO know who I am and where I want to end up. I have done enough of the growing and shrinking in the past few years. It is time for me to find and hold true to who I am. I am THE ALICE! I am the ONLY one who can write and defend this dissertation. No one can help me (well I need support, that is not what I mean). I have to find the courage from within to know and accept that I CAN DO THIS. I am on the right path and I was lead here for a purpose. The white rabbit didn't find the wrong Alice. I know that now. So now all that is left to to prepare for battle. My Jabberwocky awaits.
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